You're not alone; many of us have had suicidal thoughts at some point in our lives. Feeling suicidal is not a character defect, and it doesn't mean that you are crazy, or weak, or flawed. It only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. This pain seems overwhelming and permanent at the moment. But with time and support, you can overcome your problems and the pain and suicidal feelings will pass. Way to hope would extend help and refrain you from hurting yourself. It’s brace to seek help. Life is precious and their are positive things which you are not able to see right now. We can help. This shall pass.